Think Spring!

Well, it has been a while since I've written, so I thought I should make an effort.

My last post was difficult and things remain the same. This situation is very frustrating and painful, but the Lord himself said that he didn't come to bring peace, but a sword. I don't know why we expect to have everything be easy and painless. It certainly wasn't for our Lord and we are to follow him. I'm trying to be positive and trust the Lord to bring about his will.

It sure seems the whole world has gone crazy and there is so much negative in the news. I try not to watch too much of it though, but it does appear that the Lord's return isn't far off. I've had a few dreams about that, and am seeking him more and more as I want to be sure to be found in him when he returns!

On a lighter, happier note, I met a new friend on facebook who lives just minutes away from me! I'm so excited to finally make a friend who lives close enough to actually get together and have fellowship with one another! Don't get me wrong, I love ALL my facebook friends and have been strengthened and challenged by many of them.
As far as I can tell, thus far, we have much in common and she knows how to do many of the things I want to learn about living more simply and self-sufficient, doing what I can to help my family out. I may not make the money but I can certainly help save it! Our Lord really does supply our EVERY need...even the need for a friend and mentor!

Goodness, I almost forgot :) We also have put in an order for some chicks due to arrive on the 26th! 8 Barred Rocks! They are pretty black and white. Suppose to be good egg producers. Our little farm is growing!


Have a blessed day!

What a time of testing I seem to be going through these days.
I believe there is a war going on, a spiritual battle for souls...even souls who belong to Christ. Especially those of us who belong to Christ because the enemy already has the souls of the lost. It seems as I seek the Lord for His direction and search His Word more diligently, the harder the enemy fights to pull me back.

The Lord has been speaking to me for some time now about my love for Him and whether or not I am a true follower of His...
'If anyone desires to come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.' Luke 9:23-24.
I have come to the realization that I haven't truly trusted the Lord.
As I said, He's been speaking to me in a few different areas and I haven't obeyed for fear of losing something, someone, or what others would think of me.
Am I really willing to give up everything to follow Him?

Oh! help me Lord! My flesh is still alive and well and it needs to die.
I once heard Joyce Meyer say, 'The only way to kill something is to stop feeding it.' WOW! So profound yet so simple!
Another sister shared something the other day about, "How to be perfectly miserable' and of course, it was all regarding feeding self!
A couple of lines that hit me hard were:
Be sensitive to slights
Demand agreement with your own views on everything
Insist on consideration and respect.
I'm thankful the Lord has brought these to my attention as much as it hurts, but I want to be humble and teachable and more than anything else to be counted worthy to be called His child and disciple.

Yesterday I was challenged by someone close to me that if I really followed the Bible I would turn my back on them. That was something I had to look at and I talked to my Pastor about what that scripture really means.
Too many take scripture out of context or don't read the full passage but pick and choose whatever fits the situation at the time, especially non-believers.

Well, I haven't forever turned my back on this person, but have for the sake of my own peace of mind, removed them from my friend list so that I will not be tempted to follow their comments and status on facebook. Because of this, there most likely will be a time of separation. This person may even choose to turn their back on me and knowing I have done the right thing, I will, with the Lord's help, be at peace.

Happy New Year!

2011!

Amazing and awesome that the Lord has seen fit to bring me to this point in life.

Well, as I look back on the beginning of last year, I see that once again I let life get in the way of accomplishing what I know to be of great importance. My health! Physically and spiritually!
Here I am at my heaviest and struggling with depression and anxiety like never before. Getting this weight under control will be a BIG help but I know from before when I lost it that it doesn't solve all of your problems. There is a much deeper issue that I've yet to uncover.
The only one who can hold you back from achieving your dreams is yourself, right?

Here I am again Lord! Without You I am nothing and I need Your strength, grace, and mercy to be the person You have created me to be. You know my hearts desire to truly know You and serve You. You said in Your Word that if I seek You I will find You if I search for You with all of my heart. Lord, I'm searching. Please remove any obstacles that are in the way of my finding Your Truth for my life. Amen.

Since becoming a member of the Facebook community I have made many new friends of various beliefs and this has caused me to question my own. Sometimes it is a good thing to be challenged to grow in your faith but the Word also warns about being deceived and tossed about by every wind of teaching. That is what I don't want and that is where I am uncertain. All I want is to please the Lord and learn and grow into the person He would have me to be! I have learned to compare everything to Scripture yet I've also learned that even the Scriptures can be misinterpreted and that what we have today is not what the early church had for their Scriptures.
So, having said all of that, I'm off to find the Truth.

Please keep me in your prayers!